Live By Faith

I had no idea that when God begin to do a deep work on my faith in 2009 that it would lead me to Poland. I had been a person who had little faith, and lived by my feelings. I had enough faith to leave California to move to Kansas City, MO. I even had the faith to stay, and persevere through tough times. However, when it came to believing for bigger things, I just didn't have 'that' kind of faith. You know faith for healing, faith for good things (destiny, spouse, future), faith for God to do the impossible, faith for God to do anything for me personally. I had faith for others, and I was comfortable with where I was at. However, God was not comfortable with me being a Christian, and living off the fumes of faith. God had bigger plans for me, bigger plans then I even knew about. God had to give me a faith makeover before He could let me step into what I'm doing today. Let me tell you, what I'm facing in Poland, I'm glad He did all that character building, and faith remodeling. I would not have made it past week one in my endeavors of being a missionary to Poland.
Before I could even step into what I'm doing in Poland, I had to make some changes in my life. This is something that God personally got involved in. No one had ever taught me what faith really was, so God had to teach me. I knew the word 'faith,' but I had no clue what it meant. In 2009 I was about to find out, and it started when I got laid off from a local company in Kansas City. When it happened, I thought it was the worst day of my life. If I hadn't lost my job, I would still be there, and I wouldn't have what I have now. I wouldn't have two degrees (A.A, and B.S), I wouldn't have a children's CD (Kids Ablaze!) that is touching kids around the world, and I wouldn't be in Poland. I would be comfortable and boring, and I wouldn't be walking by faith. So in reality, it was the best day of my life.
From 2009 to 2014 I was thrown into one trial and test after the other. 2011 was one of the hardest years of my life, but by faith I survived. I learned not to broadcast my doubts, fears, complaints, and the reality of what I was going through. The Holy Spirit was really strict about this, I was only allowed to broadcast praise. I wasn't going through normal circumstances; my faith was being thrown in the fire. On one side I had the enemy trying ruin my faith, and on the other side I had God testing everything I had inside of me. So broadcasting things on Facebook like, "I'm depressed," or "will life ever get better" was a big time no no for me. I'm a child of God, and I had to learn to act like it. If I was to be a faith walker like Abraham, I had to make some big adjustments. I had to learn about what faith was, and let it grow strong in me. People who walk by faith please God, and that's what I wanted to do. So I had to start declaring what God said about me, and start declaring His Word period. I couldn't whine to my friends or to God. I needed to stand on God's Word, and live it.
 I found out that faith is pretty simple, you hear/speak God's Word, you believe it enough to do it. So I had to be careful of what I was watching, who I was hanging around, what was coming out of my mouth, and what I was thinking about. I found out that words are very powerful, and they have the ability to create. When I would whine to a friend about being single, or not having a job...what was I broadcasting? Is that what I want? What did I want? What was I creating by broadcasting all that whining? I had to change what was coming out of my mouth. Also, I began to recognize who not to share things with, because they would not respond in faith. Remember that story of Jesus only bringing a couple of his disciples to raise the dead girl? Why did He do that? Because the last thing Jesus needed in that room was someone who would say, "now Jesus you can't do that, she's dead." Jesus was smart, he left the unbelievers, and those with 'yeeeee of little faith' hang outside with the people broadcasting the dirges. These faith principals still work today, and I had to learn them for myself.
Once I figured out how to broadcast the right things, that's when life began to change for me. It did not happen overnight, but it did happen. I went through a lot of things that not a lot people will ever know about, but I saw God begin to change me. The more faith I got, the more stable my life became. The more happier I became, and the more deeper my relationship with God got. That's because I let perseverance run its course in my life. I could actually feel faith inside me, and recognized it. After living by faith for a couple of years, it changed everything. I had to learn how to trust God, and stand on His promises. I could no longer live by how I felt, and broadcast everything that came into my brain. I was walking in a different place with God, and I could never go back to where I had been before. I finally became a real Christian, a person who walked by faith...faithfully. 
Today God is looking for the next generation of leaders, and wants to launch people into their destinies. Maybe the thing that is holding people back is their lack of faith. If you're going through a tough time, and you think God has forgotten you...think again. Maybe it's time for you to start changing what you're broadcasting. What do you want to do for God? Have you broadcast that lately? You should! You should do it a lot, and remind God of those things He promised You. You should start declaring boldly what God says about you, and stand on His promises. That's what I did privately in my home. I got real with God, and reminded him of my destiny. Hmmm...I wonder how I ended up in Poland? What was I broadcasting? Sometimes when we're going through tough times, God wants to see how we are going to respond. What is going to come out of us? Faith or unbelief? Faith or feelings? If people start trusting God, persevering, and responding in faith...then God can begin to do the positioning. So today, choose to live by faith, and you never know what God has in store for you up the road.


Live By Faith (Original Song by Mary Seidler)